PATH AND FRUIT
To have an ambition seems to be a natural phenomenon in the human
make-up. Some people want to be rich, powerful or famous. Some want to
be very knowledgeable, to get degrees. Some just want to find a little
niche for themselves where they can look out of the window and see the
same scenery every day. Some want to find a perfect partner, or as near
perfect as possible.
Even when we are not living in the world, but in a nunnery, we have
ambitions: to become excellent meditators, to be perfectly peaceful,
that this life-style should yield results. There's always something to
hope for. Why is that? Because it's in the future, never in the present.
Instead of being attentive to what is now, we are hoping for something
better to come, maybe tomorrow. Then, when tomorrow arrives, it has to
be the next day again, because it still wasn't perfect enough. If we
were to change this pattern in our thinking habits and rather become
attentive to what is, then we would find something to satisfy us. But
when we are looking at that which doesn't exist yet, more perfect, more
wonderful, more satisfying, then we can't find anything at all, because
we are looking for that which isn't there.
The Buddha spoke about two kinds of people, the ordinary worldling
(//puthujjana//) and the noble person (//ariya//). Obviously it is a
worthwhile ambition to become a noble person, but if we keep looking for
it at some future time, then it will escape us. The difference between a
noble one and a worldling is the experience of "path and fruit"
(//magga-phala//). The first moment of this supermundane consciousness
is termed Stream-entry (//sotapatti//) and the person who experiences it
is a Stream-winner (//sotapanna//).
If we put that into our mind as a goal in the future, it will not come
about, because we are not using all our energy and strength to recognize
each moment. Only in the recognition of each moment can a path moment
The distinguishing factor between a worldling and a noble one is the
elimination of the first three fetters binding us to continuous
existence. These three, obstructing the worldling, are: wrong view of
self, sceptical doubt and belief in rites and rituals, (//sakkayaditthi,
vicikiccha// and //silabbatta-paramasa//). Anyone who is not a
Stream-winner is chained to these three wrong beliefs and reactions that
lead away from freedom into bondage.
Let's take a look at sceptical doubt first. It's that niggling thought
in the back of the mind: "There must be an easier way," or "I'm sure I
can find happiness somewhere in this wide world." As long as there's
doubt that the path of liberation leads out of the world, and the belief
is there that satisfaction can be found within the world, there is no
chance of noble attainment, because one is looking in the wrong
direction. Within this world with its people and things, animals and
possessions, scenery and sense contacts, there is nothing to be found
other than that which we already know. If there were more, why isn't it
easily discernible, why haven't we found it? It should be quite plain to
see. What are we looking for then?
Obviously we are looking for happiness and peace, just like everyone
else is doing. Sceptical doubt, that alarmist, says: "I'm sure if I just
handled it a little cleverer than I did last time I'll be happy. There
are a few things I haven't tried yet." Maybe we haven't flown our own
plane yet, or lived in a cave in the Himalayas or sailed around the
world, or written that best-selling novel. All of these are splendid
things to do in the world except they are a waste of time and energy.
Sceptical doubt makes itself felt when one isn't quite sure what one's
next move should be. "Where am I going, what am I to do?" One hasn't
found a direction yet. Sceptical doubt is the fetter in the mind when
the clarity which comes from a path moment is absent. The consciousness
arising at that time removes all doubt, because one has experienced the
proof oneself. When we bite into the mango, we know its taste.
The wrong view of self is the most damaging fetter that besets the
ordinary person. It contains the deeply imbedded "this is me" notion.
Maybe it's not even "my" body, but there is "someone" who is meditating.
This "someone" wants to get enlightened, wants to become a
Stream-winner, wants to be happy. This wrong view of self is the cause
of all problems that could possibly arise.
As long as there's "somebody" there, that person can have problems.
When there's nobody there, who could have difficulties? Wrong view of
self is the root which generates all subsequent pain, grief and
lamentation. With it also come the fears and worries: "Am I going to be
alright, happy, peaceful, find what I am looking for, get what I want,
be healthy, wealthy and wise?" These worries and fears are well
substantiated from one's own past. One hasn't always been healthy,
wealthy and wise, nor gotten what one wanted, nor felt wonderful. So
there's very good reason to be worried and fearful as long as wrong view
of self prevails.
Rites and rituals in themselves are not harmful, only believing them
to be part of the path to //Nibbana// is detrimental. They need not even
be religious, although we usually think of them like that. Such as
offering flowers and incense on a shrine, prostrating or celebrating
certain festivals and believing that this will accumulate enough merit
to go to the //Deva// realms. It's devotion, respect and gratitude to
the Triple Gem, [*] which count. But this belief is not only confined to
religious activities. Everybody lives with rites and rituals, even
though we may not be aware of them. In human relationships there are
certain prescribed ways of acting in respect to one's parents, one's
children, one's partners. How one relates in one's job, to friends and
strangers, how one wants to be confirmed by others, all is connected to
preconceived ideas of what is right and proper in a certain culture and
tradition. None of it has any basic truth in it, all is mind- made. The
more ideas one has, the less one can see reality. The more one believes
in them the harder it is to abandon them. As one imagines oneself to be
a certain kind of person, one relates in that way in all situations. It
doesn't have to be how we put flowers on a shrine, it can also be how we
greet people, if we do it according to a certain stereotyped ritual and
not the way an open heart and mind may dictate.
* [Triple Gem -- //Buddha, Dhamma, Sangha//.]
These three obstructions fall away when a path and fruit moment has
been experienced. There's a marked change in such a person, which is --
of course -- not externally visible. It would be nice to wear a halo and
look blissful. But the inner change is firstly that the experience
leaves absolutely no doubt what has to be done in this life. The event
is totally different from anything previously known, so much so, that it
makes one's former life, up to that point, immaterial. Nothing can be
found in the past which has fundamental importance. The only
significance lies in going ahead with the practice so that this minimal
experience of the first path moment can be fortified, resurrected and
firmly established in oneself.
The path and fruit moments recur for the Once-returner
(//sakadagami//), the Non-returner (//anagami//) and the Enlightened One
(//Arahant//). Each time they are not only deepened, but can be
lengthened. One could compare this to having examinations at the
university. If one is going through four years of university study to
get a certain degree, one has to pass examinations at the end of each
year. One has to answer questions each time, based on one's previously
absorbed knowledge. But the questions become deeper, more profound and
more difficult with each subsequent examination. While they are always
concerned with the same subject, they require more depth and profundity
of understanding each time. Until one finally graduates and doesn't have
to return to university. It's the same with our spiritual development.
Each path moment is based on the previous one and is concerned with the
same subject, yet it goes deeper and further. Until one passes one's
final test and need not return again.
The path moment doesn't have any thinking or feeling in it. It is not
comparable to the meditative absorptions (//jhana//). Although it is
based upon them because only the concentrated mind can enter into a path
moment, it does not have the same qualities. the meditative absorptions
have -- in their initial stages -- the ingredients of rapture, happiness
and peacefulness. Later on, the mind experiences expansion, nothingness
and a change of perception. The path moment does not contain any of
these states of mind.
It has a quality of non-being. This is such a relief and changes one's
world view so totally that it is quite understandable that the Buddha
made such a distinction between a worldling and a Noble One. While the
meditative absorptions bring with them a feeling of oneness, of unity,
the path moment does not even contain that. The moment of fruition,
subsequent to the path moment, is the understood experience and results
in a turned-around vision of existence.
The new understanding recognizes every thought, every feeling as
stress (//dukkha//). The most elevated thought, the most sublime feeling
still has this quality. Only when there is nothing, is there no stress.
There is nothing internal or external that contains the quality of total
satisfactoriness. Because of such an inner vision, the passion for
wanting anything is discarded. All has been seen for what it really is
and nothing can give the happiness that arises through the practice of
the path and its results.
The //Nibbanic// element cannot be truly described as bliss, because
bliss has a connotation of exhilaration. We use the word "bliss" for the
meditative absorption, where it includes a sense of excitement. The
//Nibbanic// element does not recognize bliss because all that arises is
seen as stress. "The bliss of //Nibanna//" may give one the impression
that one may find perfect happiness, but the opposite is true. One finds
that there is nothing and therefore no more unhappiness, only peace.
To look for path and fruit will not bring them about, because only
moment to moment awareness can do so. This awareness will eventually
culminate in real concentration where one can let go of thinking and be
totally absorbed. We can drop the meditation subject at that time. We
need not push it aside, it falls away of its own accord, and absorption
in awareness occurs. If there has to be an ambition in one's life, this
is the only worthwhile one. All others will not bring fulfilment.
One doesn't have to force oneself to give up sceptical doubt. What is
there to doubt when one has experienced the truth? If one hits oneself
with a hammer, one feels pain and cannot doubt it. One knows from one's
Rites and rituals are brought to an interesting end because the person
who has experienced a path moment will under no circumstance indulge in
any role-playing. All roles are the ingredients of unreality. One may
continue religious rites, because they contain aspects of respect,
gratitude and devotion. But there will not be any rituals in how to
relate to people or to situations or how to invent stories about oneself
because the response is with a spontaneous open heart.
Letting go of the wrong view of self is -- of course -- the most
profound change, causing all other changes. For the Stream-winner the
wrong view of self can never intellectually arise again, but
feeling-wise it can, because the path moment has been so fleeting. It
hasn't made the complete impact yet. If it had done so, it would have
resulted in Enlightenment. This is possible and is mentioned in the
Buddha's discourses as having happened during his lifetime. All four
stages of holiness were realized while listening to the Dhamma.
The initial fruit moment needs to be re-lived, one has to resurrect it
over and over again, until the second path moment can arise. It's like
repeating what one knows and not forgetting so that one can build upon it.
It is very useful to remind oneself in all waking moments that body,
feeling, perception, mental formations and consciousness are all
impermanent and have no core substance, changing from moment to moment.
Whether one has had a direct vision of non-self (//anatta//) or just an
understanding of it, either way one has to bring it back into one's mind
and re-live it as often as possible. As we continue to do this, ordinary
problems arise less and less. If we remain aware of the impermanence of
all that exists, our difficulties seem far less important and the view
of self subtly changes.
The view we have of ourselves is our worst enemy. Everyone has made up
a persona, a mask that one wears and we don't want to see what's behind
it. We don't allow anyone else to look either. After having had a path
moment, that is no longer possible. But the mask, fear and rejection
come to the fore. The best antidote is to remember again and again, that
there's really nobody there, only phenomena, nothing more. Even though
the inner vision may not be concrete enough to substantiate such a
claim, the affirmation helps to loosen the grasping and clinging and to
hang on a little less tightly.
The direction of the practice is certainly towards Stream-entry.
However, there is nothing to get, there's everything to give up. Unless
that is done, the moment cannot happen, and we will continue to live in
the same way we always have. Beset by //dukkha// obstructed by
//dukkha//, subject to praise and blame, loss and gain, fame and
ill-fame, happiness and unhappiness. The usual problems -- all caused by
"self" -- will arise again and again. The real change comes when there
is a decisive alteration in the way we view ourselves, otherwise the
difficulties remain the same because the same identical person is
Being mindfully aware in and out of meditation is the practice which
will bring results. It means doing one thing at a time, attentive to
mind and body. When listening to Dhamma, only listen. When sitting in
meditation, only attending to the meditation subject. When planting a
tree, only planting. No frills, no judgements. That habituates the mind
to be in each moment. Only in such a way can a path moment occur. It's
not in the distant future, it's possible here and now. There's no reason
why an intelligent, healthy, committed person should not be able to
attain it with patience and perseverance.
We have heard about disenchantment and dispassion as steps on the path
to liberation and freedom. They cannot have meaning and impact unless
there is a vision of a totally different reality, one which does not
contain the world's manifoldness. When one sits in meditation and starts
thinking, that's the temptation of diversification and expansion
(//papanca//). The //Nibbana// element is one, not manifold. One could
say that it's empty of all that we know. Until that is seen, the world
will keep calling, but we need not believe it all. It is a difficult
task. So one has to remind oneself often, otherwise one gets caught by
temptation. One should not be surprised when one doesn't find happiness;
manifoldness, diversification cannot create happiness, only distraction.
Certainly one can experience pleasure from the senses. If one has good
karma there will be many occasions. Good food, beautiful scenery,
pleasant people, good music, interesting books, a comfortable home, not
too much physical discomfort. But do these bring fulfilment? Since it
didn't happen in the past, why should it occur in the future? Path and
fruit bring fulfilment because they are empty of phenomena. Emptiness
does not change nor does it become unpleasant and it cannot lack peace,
since there is nothing to disturb it.
When people hear or read about //Nibbana//, they are apt to say: "How
can I want nothing?" When one has seen that everything one can possibly
want is meant to fill an inner void and dissatisfaction, then the time
has come to want nothing. This goes beyond "not wanting" because one now
accepts the reality that there is nothing worthwhile to be had. Not
wanting anything will make it possible to experience that there is
actually nothing -- only peace and quiet.
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